|Four years later-memories of you
It seems so unreal that four years have passed without you here with us. I have missed you so much this past year, especially when it came time to chose my bridesmaids and you weren't here to share that experience with me. I am fortunate to have so many great memories of our time together; they help me to cope with the inescapable fact that you are gone.
I was thinking about the time we challenged Jason to a cartwheel contest in your back yard. There we were, 30 something year old women trying our best to do cartwheels in the dark in the back yard, laughing so hard we could hardly catch our breath. The funniest part was that Jason could do a better cartwheel that either one of us!
We had so much fun getting ready for our nights out on the town. I can still remember lounging around in your room watching you put on your makeup and listening to sound choice on the TV. The smell of "Beyond Paradise" perfume still takes me back to that time. I still have the "party purse"; although it doesn't get much use these days.
Your departure will always leave a huge void in my life and the way your life was taken scarred me to the core of my being. I never knew I was even capable of feeling such grief and rage. I am thankful for the time we had together and for all of the fun times we had but mostly I am thankful that I had the oppurtunity to know you. Thank you for being such a wonderful friend to me and for making me laugh so much.